08/12/2008......... 

Well, where to start?? It is always be my problem... I don't know where to start. Never mind, I just write whatever come out from my mind. This Saturday will be our 4th years as a couple. It's a day where everything in our life are changes. We used to be a friend before that. We talk, we act, we listen to each other as a friend. There's nothing in our mind to have this relationship to become this further. But, it's happen and nobody plan it except it's come from Allah will. He knows what best for us. I really thank Allah so much from my heart because He gave me a very best man in my life besides of my dad and my brothers. 

In these years, knowing him gave me so much experiences. You know what its feel if you in love. Right?? Me and him realize that we not the first for each other. We have met few guys and girls in our life, but, we hope that we are the last until the end of our breath. We hope that we are created to be each other to fulfill our needs to be love. InsyaAllah.....

In these 4 years of our relationship, we faced so much difficulties so much barriers from others and from ourselves also. It's teach us to be patients, to trust and to be responsible in this relationship. What is love without challenges. God always test us to see how we handle it. That's mean He loves us and He want to show us the right direction to us. It's only come from us either we want or don't want to face the challenges and find the right ways. You know what? Jealous is always become our enemy. Jealous always want to play with our feeling. Me?? Yeah, I always jealous. Sometimes its become worse. Fighting are not the stranger in relationship. Sometimes, we need to fight to express our feeling. BUT!!! once again.... BUT!!!.... avoid fighting seriously.... REMEMBER!!!! DO NOT USE ROUGHNESS!!!! It will turn to abuse k.... We just need to express little bit of angry and a little bit of sulky.... Well, its only for sometimes... Cannot always be like that. It can make the relationship become worse. No matter how jealous we are, we always believe each other. We turn our jealousy to be a medium for us to appreciate each other. People say "cemburu tanda sayang" (jealous means love) and it works.......... 

New year is just around us. It's time to set our new goal... For years I never have new year intention. But, for next year I just pray and pray and pray for my one and only goal of life........ "I WANT TO BE HIS HALF, I WANT TO BE HIS QUEEN OF HEART UNTIL MY LAST BREATH AND I WANT A BE A MOM FOR HIS CHILDS".......

Abang..... I love you so much... I love you more and more in every second of my breath...... 

in love with you,

bbie

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